I and English

First, I’d rather not have English in the course of the carrier; it is really difficult to me.

I understand it is necessary although that need bother me, because it only aggravates a reality were some peoples colonize other trough the language and cultural, I also understand that people allow it.

I did every blogs writing in my copybook and then looking in the dictionary word by word, still feel I didn’t learned anything. I can not retain the words even if I write then by hand and then on the computer word by word.

Letting aside my annoyance about the colonization through the language, I understand that English is necessary as it is a reality, like it or no, it is a universal language.

I hope to at some point take classes but with a different method and spend much more time al least two to three hours daily; I have to go step by step and for scratch.

When did I used English?

Only for classes to make the videos and edit the blogs with my roommate and only to realize that I use many time the some word, yet I do not memorized. The way of writing cause me conflict with the Spanish, because more than even I turn the words in spañish by the way it is written in English.

Maybe if had spent more time on the classes but I really would not think very different.

I performed online exercises, used the platform  and I fin it hard, it take me a lot of time to do en exercise, because I search the word in the dictionary

This semester has been even more complex, because outside the University the Egress Work and my job I got less time.

I know all this are only excuses, or so it seers but is my reality. I assume how much it cost me even when may pride bother me.

The good and the bad of this year.

Something inside me don’t want to write this, i don’t lie to think too much in the past, because there is nothing to do with it, i prefer to think in the present or even better, in the future. But i have to do this homework.

This has been a very interesting year in many aspects, i got tested multiple times in my personal life and i discover things about me that i let go, but, i always love and sometimes it looks like it was trying to found me. These last words are about the exploration and study of the spiritual and energetic world, the metaphysic connection of the life and the way the world interact with itself.

I’m not very fetishist or fan of the avatars but I got a place for my “altar” again, now my concept of altar is not a worship space, is a space that reminds me there is something beyond of we can perceive, and is very important to remember it, because many times our life and it’s “reality” the system we are submersed make us forget it, even when the life try to reminds us about it in many ways.

In other hand I been analyzing myself and working the things I don’t like about me, is difficult, even when I’m very self-critical, too much in many occasions, bee self-critical and don’t change anything is waste of time.

I try to apply this to my professional and student life, and sometimes I can’t do it, but I will keep trying.

This year is almost over and this has been a very tough year and I can’t give up even when sometimes I feel overwhelm. The academic part of this year is almost over, and when that is finished, I will be able to do what I like.

The Role Playing Games

The role playing games are interpretation games, the easier way to explain them is like a theatrical play but without a script, there is a “Master” or “Story-teller” wich is the director of this play, and all the players are the actors.

To play role playing games, you need a few things, to start, the players, normally between 3 and 5 players, some games need less people like the terror games or more people like in the “live role playing games” where the people not olnly explain the situations they do, but they really act them. Another critical part is the story-teller, the story teller job is to create the world, with all the important things, characters (non playing characters), maps, the history they will face and of course guide the players. The physical materials needed are dices, character sheets (where the character is written like if it was a curriculum vitae), pencils, and the guides to take the game on (story teller’s guide, player’s guide, etc).

My faorite game is Vampire: The masquerade, in this game you are a vampire, you need blood to live and the light of the sun will kill you just like fire, in this game you can impersonate a vampire of the 13 clans, each one with different powers and flaws, this game is in the psycological terror category and is one of the games that allow more interpretation, because is a very social game, where the plots are the kings and the secrets are the queens, is very fun, sadly now there is not many time to play, but some days we gather with a few friends and roll the dices for the times gone.

The Role Playing Games

The role playing games are interpretation games, the easier way to explain them is like a theatrical play but without a script, there is a “Master” or “Story-teller” wich is the director of this play, and all the players are the actors.

To play role playing games, you need a few things, to start, the players, normally between 3 and 5 players, some games need less people like the terror games or more people like in the “live role playing games” where the people not olnly explain the situations they do, but they really act them. Another critical part is the story-teller, the story teller job is to create the world, with all the important things, characters (non playing characters), maps, the history they will face and of course guide the players. The physical materials needed are dices, character sheets (where the character is written like if it was a curriculum vitae), pencils, and the guides to take the game on (story teller’s guide, player’s guide, etc).

My faorite game is Vampire: The masquerade, in this game you are a vampire, you need blood to live and the light of the sun will kill you just like fire, in this game you can impersonate a vampire of the 13 clans, each one with different powers and flaws, this game is in the psycological terror category and is one of the games that allow more interpretation, because is a very social game, where the plots are the kings and the secrets are the queens, is very fun, sadly now there is not many time to play, but some days we gather with a few friends and roll the dices for the times gone.

The great disaster in my flat is incredible...

The great disaster in my flat is incredible, it looks more like a Workshops than a flat, is because most of time I work in the dining room or on the yard.

The patio seems a ware house, full of timber, scenery panels, tables, foot leg the mesons, two trunks big, tools, leafs, flowers and oranges… yes, in me yard is a orange tree and between august and December fall many flower, some leafs and oranges and see more messy.

Also is metal cuter, one cuter trunk, one anvil and a forge.

If my flat doesn’t have a yard I don’t know what I will do.

Inside of flat the mess is for the fabrics and working materials in craft. The dining and living room appear a workshop of tailoring and   my room better no talk.

When I order not go an many and not ordering too followed because have too lithe time because after of the university I start working and do the university homework, added to this my roommates are not help full.

I am anxious to finish the university and have time to order like I always want and keep a suitable order. I have every thing planed: the distribution of the  things for category, I do a screen for tools restructure the closet for the clothes, cabinets for  every accessory of clothing, furniture for the patterns of costumes of clothes and for the papers and materials that I use in craft.

Tha idea is have all categorized easy to find for working.

"Supports Green ..."

To be honest i don't know much about the environmental topic and all the "hippie fashion", i don't even care about the clothing. The people fill their mouths with hot topics and many of them don't believe or even understand about the subjects but it make them feel part of something... i hope one day that be more than just a hot topic and become an habit, a feel and a tradition.

Personally, since i was a child, i learn to take care of don't trow papers to the street, my father never trow a paper even when he got the pockets were full,he keep them until a garbage can appear in his way. I know this is only a detail, but in my college as we were a rural zone, at least when i was a child, now is a city, was very common to check environmental topics, it was a "day after day" topic and therefore it never as a distant topic, actually i remember be part of a sort of ecological brigada, i guess everybody was a part of that group, it was extremely fun now that i remember, i guess i wasn't very different to the people that belong to the environmental movements, the difference is that i was younger.

Well, now i live in Santiago, a place were in the first months it was hard to breath, i got suffocate and my nose usually was irritated due to the smog but with some time i get used to the air, but i will never get use to the dirty of the people in here. Graneros, my birthplace, is just a couple of hours of this grey city and they are very different or it was, sadly both cities are more similar to each other and not in the good aspects.

The History repeats

The History repeats

I thought last semester was the ultimate expression of a mesh poorly implemented, with teachers who do not know what to do in class and put to improvise without any clarity. I thought it was the ultimate expression of a mishandling of issues and loss of time where only attends classes to be recorded as present.

I was so wrong, that disappointment and anger have no place because it would be a waste of time. What for? It's as if he was not worth the fight is like no matter and is time for the resignation.

This semester is history repeat again, a professor in class reading something that everyone can perfectly read at home, a demonstration of null handling pedagogy and little interest in his work as a teacher.

No doubt the teacher is good at what he does as a designer but definitely not knows how to deliver that knowledge.

Apparently that is just waiting the critics serve him and not only to reprove the critic and be able to see it as a professional, I believe he is able to do it. Just have to keep attending classes to not be absent and failing the class for assistance. Yes, it is just resigned.

I forgot, this is the last half of race can not be repeated, not us and hopefully not happen to other students